Some of you know me, some of you don't. Integrity is important to me and I've been encouraged by many to come forward publicly and tell my side and to try make amends with everyone whose been hurt by all of these actions.
I'd like to tell you what actually happened in brief, and let you make your own conclusion:
I'm being accused of "choking out" Felony @ BR. To set the scene:
Besides Felony and Myself, The only other people in the bunny bar that night (it was very late - around 1am) that I saw were Kelli (bartender) and Jenny Jade whom I was talking with.
Ashley was the cashier that night.
Both her and I were drunk that evening. I'm not violent person - anyone who's met me and seen me drink knows that I'm a happy drunk but that night felony happened to push my buttons while I was in a bad mood. I was conversing with Jenny and Felony was trying to "play" with us. Because of our respective moods I think, neither of us was having it. So we kept pushing her away and so on, there was a lot of laughing during this point as if it was a game.
She went a bit too far, and while this action I'm not proud of I stand by that I did it: I spun around off my stool and lunged toward her in what she perceived to be a threatening manner. I may have even gotten as far as touching her (I actually don't remember touching her, but based on our proximity I would say its a possibility). The bar tender saw me stand up and shouted "Freaky!" to which I immediately reacted (Never heard her yell at me before) and retreated back over to my seat. Felony then left the bar cause she was a bit shaken up. Felony and I spoke about it the next day and she told me the speed of my actions and the look in my eyes was a trigger for her so it freaked her out and I apologized for my actions and for making her feel that way.
I thought it was over and done with and she and I were good at that point. But for the record, I don't feel in anyway justified in my actions, I do believe strongly that any man that puts his hands on a woman when they are unwelcome is a piece of shit. No excuse.
As of late it would appear that someone has gotten her to believe (or at least say) I "choked her out" to the point of passing out. Anyone who's met me knows my character (I would hope). I have NEVER in my LIFE put my hands around a girls neck! To say the least I can't even comprehend doing what I'm being accused of. Not how I was brought up. If I had choked her out, you can be damn sure that Kelli and Jenny would have been kicking my ass (disrespect ANY other house girl in Jenny's or Kelli's presence, you'll see what I'm talking about). And if she had blacked out - I'm sure paramedics would have been called or at the very least someone would have been notified. Plus there are security cameras above the bar, I've seen the pictures from them.
There it is...the good the bad the ugly. I like Felony, I really do. In fact, I'd like to apologize here publicly to say I'm sorry for any pain that she's going through because of all of this crap. If anyone is caused pain or issues from my actions or inactions, I'm man enough to apologize and try make amends. I'm not sure what things have made such a drastic change in what she's telling people or not. I understand that in the presence of a real answer, people will believe anything or listen to whoever is talking loudest, and right now all the hearsay and rumors are doing all the talking. I'm just asking you to take what you know about me and factor that in when listening to all the BS being spread about me and what happened.
Those of you that don't and are reading rumors and listening to third hand information, etc. I can only ask you to make your own conclusions. If you feel I'm a shit and scum of the earth, so be it. I've done nothing but be nice and supportive and gentlemanly to EVERY girl I've met at ANY of the ranches. Helped many of them individually, even if i don't party with them. I consider many of them true friends and to think I would do something like this to any girl is reprehensible. I would think me scum of the earth.
As to why I didn't come forward a bit sooner, I'll give you the reason, I have epilepsy and my seizures are strange in that I go blank, while fully functional, I'm a bit like a walking enigma. I've been recovering from a main seizure episode that started Sunday night and continued until yesterday..getting better each day. So for some, if you've texted me, dm'd me and gotten cryptic answers, or what have you that is why. It takes a couple days to recover and I'm "in and out" during that time. I'm not a "fall down and shake" epileptic...just...."spacey".
So there it is...believe me or don't - don't know where it will go from here. I only hope everyone can at at least get some closure. Feel free to DM me here.
